my predetermined future

i failed big time..

TWICE!!

I'm not trying to boast, but failing is not an option for me, it's not for anybody I suppose. and that's why the first time I failed, I felt like a loser. but I guess the second time it happened, I just felt nothing. Well, yeah , there were some crying here and there, but after my maghrib prayer, I felt like He has something to show, to tell me. and so, I've made my decision..

I won't take any more actuarial papers. I guess, I don't have any luck in that. I won't pursue any actuarial career. I'm gonna go with risk management instead. That's my second-major-to-be by the way.

I'm not depressed, at all, surprisingly. In fact, I felt relieved for deciding my future earlier than when it's supposed to be.

so yeah..
buh-bye my predetermined future!!

*big-time-failure is when you failed but everyone else passed. yah I know, it felt like cr*p