a piece of heart

does living overseas make one a better person, spiritually?

i've heard it so many times, even see it with my own eyes, and yes, people DO change for better (though in some cases, they don't, in fact they become the exact opposite person). i've seen a couple of friends from my high school and pre-college years, they look more charming and beautiful now with their new personalities. i felt amazed by the changes, really. why can't i do that?

living in a foreign place makes one think of the world she's living in. me, no exception. it opens my eyes to new things, things that bring me nearer to The One. but somehow i couldn't find myself becoming like my friends. i wanna be like them, feel what they feel, and see what they see. once again, why can't i do that?

there are times when i wish i could ask them what they did to make them change into what they are now. "the heart," i believe the answer would be. to be able to live in the Firdaus, forever, masyaAllah, even the thought of it makes my heart flutter with excitement. that's where i wanna be, with my whole family and friends.



Ya Allah, tanamkanlah dalam hati hambaMu ini keinginan yang kuat untuk berubah kepada yang lebih baik untukMu, Ya Allah.